As a kid and teenager growing up, I played lots of sports. Among these sports was hockey. I was definitely better at it compared to the other sports and because of this, hockey was my thing and a major part of my identity. This followed me for a long time as it played a big part in what I did and what I thought I'd doin the future. Then I moved to Melbourne and started university. While yes, Idid play hockey again, as I had done for the years past. This time around something had changed. I was in a new city with a new team and a whole lot of other opportunities, and suddenly I didn't want to play hockey. I said I'll have a year off and come back refreshed and ready to go again.
But then I didn't and still haven't. Four years have since passed and though this year I thought very hard about playing hockey again, something seemed wrong. It felt like I would be going backwards, like I was going back to a person who I wasn't anymore. While hockey was part of my identity before, now it is not. There is a little bit, I guess, but it has been relegated to only a minor interest rather than a major part of my identity.
I'm sure you might have also gone through such an experience. As you grow older to leave things behind. This can be sad for a period as you move between having a piece of your identity to not having it any more. But just because you no longer feel connected to it anymore doesn't mean you will never have something to filling a part of your identity.
I think many people around the time of attending or graduating university will go through this period.Because of that I feel that you should know that you will feel lost but if you keep yourself open to new opportunities you won't be lost for long.
Since I stopped playing hockey, I have felt somewhat lost. I however kept trying new things. Somethings have stuck and others have not, but that’s okay because I keep moving forward. For some going back to hockey may have been the right choice. But for me it is not. I have done that and I enjoyed it. I know I will play hockey again. But just not at the moment. The moment now is for trying new things. It's to finding my new thing.
So, if you every feel lost.You just have to build a new map. Wander down some paths and try new things.You will very quickly have a new map of yourself, with what you like, dislike and suddenly you will have a direction you wish to head in. But until then, keep exploring.